This un-answered question played in mind for at least 3 years. It is repeating every morning when the phone alarm ringing everyday to wake me up to go to work, when i forced it to snooze for 10 minutes.
I just don't like to work, maybe because of where i'm working now? *maybe*. But i can see many people seems to like what they do. They LOVE to go to work, they LOVE to talk about their work, they LOVE to show off their working environment and experiences, they LOVE to share what type of collegues they have, and bla bla bla...
But i don't. I just don't like to talk about my jobs. I just come to work to work for the purpose of coming to work. Isn't it very alike a body without soul, a dead body without a life?
I used to make over myself every morning, to make myself motivated to come to work, put on my light make up, choose my nice and unique attire, choose my shoe to wear (even though it's for like 20 seconds walking to my factory entrance door, and change to FAKE ugly white croc shoe afterwards), choose my matching accessories.
But it seems not working anymore, as people get used to my "make over look" already, and me too. =____="
Do you have any idea to spice up my morning, so i will feel urge to go to work? I've been looking for new job since few months back, since my company is in trouble, but yet to find any "ngam sam sui" job. It's just not right, Salary too low, location too far, boss looks cocky, and bla bla bla ....*hahahahh* Tell you what, i just dreamt of being rejected by a recent interviewed company, saying "my technical and experiences too weak!"
Ohhhh~~~ I'm going crazy already! I just want to quit working, but i need money. I just want to enjoy, but i need money. I want to do something that i like (but i do not know what i like to do now), but i need money. I want to learn designing, but i need money + time. I need ....i need......i need.........arrgghh~~ I do not know what i need, and what i want! Am i too stupid for not being able to answer such an easy question.
I hate working!!