.. Mailing List ..

Dear All,

Some of these post are really personal to me, and I really hope it to be revealed to someone who really understand me. The password protected post doesn't meant to abandon any of you from following my posts, but I hope you understand how important and personal these posts are to me. I really want to share my innermost thoughts with other people but I have to limit this for fear of putting myself at risk in the future.

You may contact me as below to request the password. I'm more than willing to share my innerthoughts with you if I think you had a very close-mouth for not disclosing it to my enemies! Hahaha!

MSN/Hotmail : elaine_2206@hotmail.com
Yahoo : elainetam_2206@yahoo.com

♥♥♥♥♥♥ Thanks again for everything folks! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

:.. Why IT? ..:

It's not easy to survive in this company...
I stil can receive call from Warehouse, complaining their application is not working..
This cannot print, that cannot works...I'm exhausted..I'm so tired...
You might wan to say i'm weak, but i admit it..i'm weak in handling stressed..
I like challenge but not stress, now I know why interviewer will ask;
"How do you handle your stress? And what is stress to you?"

It's a small problem, but it affect production...
Meaning it will affect the whole operation and productivity..
And directly affecting the reputation of the company...
And do you need to fore yourself to do that? Yes!

Why did i join IT? Why i study IT in the beginning?
Knowing i'm not the kind of girl that can handle such stress..
Challenge..Maybe..because everyone is saying that gal/women/lady rarely involve as programmer/ developer..
But my sister did it, so can I..

I'm so tired..really tired...just feel want to fly away..
Like a bird flying freely in the air...Or like a fish swimming freely in the water..
Make me start to doubt my ability in this field...
How can i succeed and pass with flying color for my study, but cant even handle such a small pressure..I'm so useless...
I'm so useless......I want to prove to them that I can do it, I can surpass them...I can!But failures seems to bother me all the way...

..Vantage Point ..

We went to see "Vantage Point" yesterday night..

It's a movie which telling us on how different people act in the same incident, of the attempt to kill and bom US President, and the Podium at Sepanyol.

The movie will keep on repeating the moment to begin the story from different point of view, 12:00:00pm, where the US President was escorted to the Podium.

The story begin with how the GNN press started to record the moments of the event, with most of the camera around...begin from 12:00:00pm..

Proceed with the point of view of the bodyguard - Thomas Barnes..begin from 12:00:00pm..

Then, proceed with the story of an US resident who was there, Sepanyol for a trip..who also recorded all the scenarios with his HVD Video Cam..begin from 12:00:00pm..

Next, from the US President's point of view-on how he used substitution to avoid from any unwanted attempt..but ended being captured by the terrorists..begin from 12:00:00pm..

Continue with the view of a Sepanyol Police, who work for the Mayor..but the other hand being used by a girl named Veronica to smuggle a bom into the podium -temptated by her beauty..begin from 12:00:00pm

Lastly, the point of view from 3 different killers who made the plan, the policeman, the shooter, and the co-ordinator...begin from 12:00:00pm

The story ended with all the bad guys (killer) were dead, and the good guys manage to save The US President...But ended where we need to watch the event again and again, and again and again BEGIN FROM 12:00:00PM........

:.. Jay Chou Concert ..:

JAY CHOU's Concert last weekend, 23th February 2008..
We got free ticket from , RM238.00 ticket, free-sitting, in Zone..
Stadium Merdeka has been renovated, and all the wooden seats has been changes to "simen" seats..
OMG! My buttock became flat after seat for 2++ hrs for the concert..
Anyhow, enjoyed the songs, and happy to see Jay's performance..especially when he is playing the piano..
OMG! So "lam", my heart melts immediately.......Why he doesn't know how to play piano? Else, sure he will became my second Jay Chou..Hahahah!
The concert ended around 10.45-11.oopm, but we did not wait until the concert ends,
And leave earlier, to prevent trapped in the jam..
There are so many people in the stadium, can you imagine what happen if everybody leave at the SAME TIME?!

JAY CHOU ! JAY CHOU! I LOVE YOU!!!Arghh~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:.. Friendship ..:

Hui Juin, Mei Peng, Siew Ping, Chin Pei, Vivien...
My best friends, all from SMKS24...From different background, different culture, different bla bla bla bla..
But we are fortunate to be grouped together..
We gather again during Chinese New Year 2008, at Vivien's house...
We chat, gamble, laugh.......And most importantly photo shoot together...Hahahah!